Alone?

The other day I blogged about connecting with God. Well, today I had some trouble with that. I felt so alone, in the middle of my quiet time when I normally am connecting with God. Which begs the question, where was God, then? Christians know the answer to this question, but my heart was doubting that the Lord was with me, and I think this happens to me a lot. Until a few years ago, I hadn't really learned about connecting with people just for the sake of connecting. Apparently this is automatic for most women, but not for me. Anyhow, the result is that I've been disconnected a lot. Seems that I've expected that to happen with God too. But He doesn't ever go away, even for a second. When He says that He loves us with an everlasting love, He means it. On the day that I gave my life to Jesus, it was because of His promise, "I am with you always." That said love to me in a big way, perhaps because it met the greatest need of my heart.
I wish I didn't have doubts, but the upside of that is that when I have to ask Jesus yet again if He's still with me, I get blessed yet again by His affirmative answer :)